Rainbow Road

splashed rainbow

2009-12-08T18:39:00.000-08:00

GOoshh.. it's been a month since my last post..
I'm majoring in Biology right now, and this is my last year. So there are several trip that I have to do, due to fulfill my credits. In the jungle or any other nowhere places I have not time to stay in touch with this blog :(
Beside those trip, there are another random stuff that I don't even understand why they keep me busy. and oh the camera was away..
now it's baack.. so here I Am :D

I got this idea of splashing colors on my jeans. So one day I bought white jeans then the story goes. It was a pretty heavy trip when I have to find the textile paint under the heavy rain, but well it was all worth for the splashed jeans :p

While I'm making this, my girls were spent the day at my house. We're supposed to do some assignment, but turns out that I'm making this jeans and they're helping me taking the picture of it. Thank you ladies :)

I tried it first on my white tights.
Then, I tried on my white jeans :)

I don't realized that a month has already passed me and sooo many things has happened.
I hope I have more time, but I'll do my best for what is left.

Rainbow is there, and yes as so many people say that you need rain and sunlight at the same time to see it.
I put that as we need tears and joy to see the beauty of rainbow.
Can not be hold, can not be owned, but I always love the rainbow.

Stay positive at all time, long road is ahead :)

Have a great life people :D

i dont feel well

2009-11-06T17:34:00.000-08:00

Meewwww..

It's been few days that my tummy ache stay and i got fever. Well, the fever is gone thanks to my mom but tummy ache stay still. this morning I'm about to see the doctor, to know if there is something wrong with me.
Well doc, It's my soul that has gone wrong.

Here is one story about me that I just realized by now.
Since I know how to put on my self clothes on, I always wear my sister's clothes. That's because most of the time I think what she has is always cooler than me. At some moments my mom tried to take me shopping, but in the end I would not wear new stuff, I keep wearing my old stuff or my sister's, or let my sister wear the new stuff then after it goes pretty dull I would wear it. Weird eh?
After that, my family call me as a second hand person, which means I like second hand stuff better than new stuff.

Well, that's kinda right. Right now, if I have new thing I would leave it until I think it is dull enough to be worn, or somehow I'll rip it. One thing I remember is torturing my shoes until it does look ugly, by stepping my own foot or make it dirty, then I'm more than happy to wear that.

Now I've found several spot and companion to shop 'dull yet cool' stuff, so I can wear it right away without torturing my stuff. I think a lot of girls who like to shop,has been to that place. Shopping in that kind of place is more tempting in my opinion.
First, it doesn't rob you, unless if there were a real thief and you didn't take care of your stuff well.
Second, it's about luck. You might not find anything or you could find wonderful wonderful pieces. Depends on your eyes and luck.
Third, walk a lot which is not as comfortable as walking in mall, but hey that's the fun part.
Fourth, you could met a lot of different kind of person in that place. The seller, buyer, and all people around there.
Last but not least, mostly there will be only one piece from any thing that you choose, so there will be small chance that you'll be uniformed by things.
Well, it is one hell experience. I wish I could try all that kind of place all over Indonesia, if that exist :)

I wear watch everyday, I mean everyday. I never put watch as my shopping list, I will only buy it when I think I need it and these few moments I was thinking I'm complete enough until somehow I only got my sister's watch left (because the others are broken) and I think that watch is kinda lame. Soo...with a kindness I have this swatch, well it's a birthday gift actually. Just the perfect way I like it, black with few color as accent. Guess what, it is 1986 edition of swatch. So, literally the watch is older than me!

This is the one that I always wear everyday. It's not mine, i only borrow it for some moments until I got boring, but hey how could I get bored with something like this. This is Casio, Black with hint of dark yellow. Actually it can measure your blood pressure, but I haven't figure it how to do it in the right way.

I'm sorry for the lack quality of picture. I don't know if it was me who can not use the camera well, or the camera is crazy? hmm, I'll take better picture later. eyy, but not me who will took the picture, I'm waiting for the promise.
Wait for another stuff that I found while having a 'little trip' ;D

Just last lazy Sunday, had lunch with family then they leave me for facing another weekdays.
White blazer : Topshop
Short jeans : U2
Black flats : Elle
Black bag : Zara

Hey, I haven't tell that I had cut my hair :D

I want my hair to look like Kate Lanphear, but my bang is not long enough. So, this is the first cut and will be continued after my hair getting longer and I won't stop until my hair reach the length that I want. :p

I use my laptop's webcam. xp

Since I don't feel really well, I don't go out too much and i think my creativity is kinda sick also then I can not think. This only few stuff that I wear, yeah daily. Sick is so not fun, when you are so ready to face the world then you fell sick. Gaahhh,everything is ruined and all things that you expected is gone..pufff..

Well, take good care of your health, people.
Cheriooo :D

flippin'

2009-10-24T06:14:00.000-07:00

As usual, I don't have enough time to sit and fill this blog.
I use this as my sanctuary, when I am desperately want to run away from the reality.

A lot of things happen, sweep of my feet.
Hell yeahhh.... im standing on my own again :)

I browsed a lot of street style, and yes those people are beyond my imagination.
In my opinion, all those designer stuff are super cool, but hey I'm not there yet to afford it and by seeing all these people on the street with their own style.
If i see picture of people from the fashion industry, yes they have wonderful style because they use wonderful piece at the first time, but it is different when i see street style, in details i can see that they wear is just simple daily stuff that we all can afford with little bit of creativity and style signature. Everyone is looking different with their own way.
It is really jaw-dropping! they are real, from different background and they do really match everything very well. I just love street style.
If i have good camera to take picture in all condition, I wanna have my own street style from people I met everyday. it's just a wish anyway :)

I got new stuff,
the first one is flowery skirt, i got it tailored. well, that is not very special. I've wanted to make it since i dont know when.

LOL, dont mind the face please :)

but the second is like super awesome!!
It is vest jeans, my beloved one found it in our little trip around Bandung.
Gosh..!! his is so brilliantly found it and super nicely give it up to me :)

i love every details of it..you name it :)

well, in the end, I wear this with docmart boots instead of this heels.

My face? looked i wanna kill someone? yes indeed :D

Please leave anything in your mind, as you do on the chictopia.

Have a great life people :D

i like those

2009-10-03T19:00:00.000-07:00

I just finish reread Paul Arden's book with title : What Ever You Think Think The Opposite.
One line that I really like is about making decision on something because you want it, not because you should.
In that book also found about Vivienne Westwood which made stores and began to sell her outrageous designs in the shop which not many people came by at that time, but now as we know she's one who give big influence in fashion world.
So, it is kinda inspired me to be dare to be different and I do believe to work my ass off first, then I'll got great repay of it.

I found several person that never stop mesmerize me at all time

1. Rihanna. I do always adore her, her hair, the way she wear clothes. Even though yeah sometimes kinda outrages but she does look amazing and yes she's so sexy :p

Like this picture, how can i not adore her shoes, her hair, and her dress? ouccch :D (picture from here)

2. Taylor Momsen. I like her punk girlie look, well i can not really decribe her style, but i just like the way she combine boyish stuff with heels, or punk shoes with dress. lovely :)

see that? i dont lie about how gorgeous she is :D (picture from here)

3. Giorgio Armani
I like the way he made man clothes and make women clothes look so sophisticated, sweet, cute, and lady like at the same time.Gaahhh can not describe it well,just love it.I even got a hard time to choose which picture I should put here.

4. Kate lanphear. Gahhh...she is, i dont know. First i saw her from Fashion TV, i was like... *jaw dropped. I like her simple smile, like telling me something. Her style and hair,huuff... DON'T ask!

5. Mika. Since the first I heard his song, I fall in love of his cheerful up beat music, then I saw the cover and video. Gosh, he's amazing. I love the cheerfulness that he brings, the multi color that he choose. I just love everything about him. Colorful. I even like how he get dressed, man style that i would love to see everyday. Mika never fail brighten up my day :)
He just released his second album last September, The boy who knew too much and I do really super super happy when it become mine :D

These people never stop amaze me..

Regina gave me this award, few days ago. Thank you so much dear :))
The award has some rules, and they are:
1. we're not allowed to change the banner of the award, the word, the color, and the signature. But, we can resized the banner.
2. Tell who gave you the award(I already write it above)
3. Choose 10 female blogger who doesn't received the award yet. and tell the reason why they deserved it. I will pass this later, I'm in the middle of something right now so I kinda hurry, but i will do it in very soon :D

Getting Older.

2009-10-02T19:55:00.000-07:00

heyhooo.. 30 of September is my birthday.
I had dinner with my girls for an gathering event which held on my birthday accidentally :p
Above is my picture with my friend Garnis, and thanks to her for the pic and the editing. She is good at photo editing. love you :)
So yeah, i just wore loose long sleeve t-shirt,jeans, and handkerchief to keep my neck warm. it has been pretty busy day, I have to assist my junior in one of subject so i got no chance to go home before dinner.

These are people who are crazy enough to break through my room in the middle of the night. I'm blessed to have them. Thank you all soo much.
I'm wishing the best for all of us :)

Second of October is Batik Day, UNESCO decide to include batik in its list of "Intangible Cultural Heritage of Humanity" items from Indonesia. (Antara News)
This is what i wear that day, even though I only went to some place to take care something, than had dinner with parents and hang out with my friends. I'm wearing it all day :)

As you can see, my hair is getting longer and uhhm.. i'm thinking to cut it.
How sexy Rihanna is, love it. I;m going to cut my hair pretty much like this, thin on one side but I got pretty busy and haven't got any chance to do it.Wish me luck on this x)

In the middle of nothing

2009-09-21T03:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Holiday people who got holiday on this short moment :p

This was what i wore on the big day in my religion,
white shirt : (x) s.m.l
Skirt : Batik Saroong
Shoes : Clark
Belt : Vintage

I love love the shoes,very comfy. I'll post pictures of me wearing that shoes, since I almost wearing it everyday.
Sorry for the stupid picture,I was in hurry to visit my relatives.

Nothing much to do in this holiday, mostly are sleeping and eating :)

Pants by Giorgio Armani in Fall 2009 Collection.
I want pants pretty much like this, because im pretty fed up with skinny jeans.
I hope i have those long lean legs, so flare pants like that would suit me well.

I dont have much to do lately, so since I have never mention before.
I do really like Rihanna..hihi it was a guilty pleasure because i did hate her for being too sexy but now I just like her almost to death :p
Yes sometimes she wear something way too different (or even odd) but it was always acceptable because of she is the one who is wearing it (for me).
And yeah the first time I cut my hair so short because I like her short hair, and now I'm addicted to short hair :)

I'm digging to have jacket like that, wish me luck on finding it :)

i see rainbow

2009-09-18T11:09:00.000-07:00

Geeez, it has been a month since my last post. I kinda lost my spirit to put on nice clothes, wondering why.
I think i got a little of my spirit back :)

These are few of what i wore, randomly :

so, this what i tried on. which one do you prefer?
i try to wear high heels, even though i'm not a heels person but i'm trying to.
After i tried, kinda addicted to heels.
I'll post my new favorite heels later :)

ohyeah,
I saw checked pants in Zara last time, by a glanced I like it but kinda confuse but right now I regret why I didn't buy it. Should I get one?
I think so :p

I do feel bored wearing skinny jeans, have any other idea of pants?
By now, I'm making one of flare pants, hope it gone well :p

*Why does my stupid camera give stupid quality? sigh...

driver for a day

2009-08-15T03:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i was hired to be my mom and sister's driver.
In the morning, i drove my mom to some meetings than pick up my sister at her house and the traffic was CRAZY and i was like super starving. Then pick my mom again at her meeting and had lunch,the traffic?don't ask.
Can you imagine how sleepy i was after eating mutton for lunch?but i had to drive them to some babies stores to buy my nephew's socks mean while i bought my self DVDs, but i dont have money with me so i asked my mom but she mock me..blaah..
I got the DVDs anyway..LOL
On our back home, while i was struggling with the traffic and sleepiness, but suddenly my mom asked to go to the fabric store which mean i could have chance to make some clothes :D
When we are half way home, my dad called for dinner before his meeting.

In a short form, I've had the feeling being a driver in Jakarta and it is pretty crazy.LOL

As you can see, it is the picture of me yesterday.
please dont mind my face, i was freaking tired :D
and below is the pattern of my jacket.
I'm in love with jacket even though Jakarta is super duper hot lately

Good day all ;)

before it all begin

2009-08-13T16:11:00.000-07:00

I just arrived in Jogja and still have nothing to do so I took pictures around the hotel :)

After two months of internship which means not a holiday, I had a glimpse of holiday to Jogja. It was only 2 days, unfortunately, i left my phone in the car and i just realize it when the plane already took of.

My ultimate purpose going to Jogja was to play golf at Cangkringan. This golf course is on the slopes of active Merapi volcano actually that makes this golf course have a beautiful view.
One interesting story about the Merapi mountain was when all result of scientific research told all of people who live around the mountain to be evacuated, there is one man who refuse to be evacuated. He is Mbah Marijan. He stayed at his house, because he said there would be anything happened to the mountain .What made him very sure about that? he admit that he is the caretaker of that mountain, so he does know if there is something gonna happen to that mountain. He is believed has supernatural power that makes him know what will happen to that mountain. A while after Mbah Marijan refuse to be evacuated, there was earthquake in Jogja, and yes Mbah Marijan was right. It wasnt the mountain which going to erupt, butitwas only indicate that there is something going on under the earth surface which caused the earthquake in Jogja.

it's me and my dad in the picture.
Do you see the mountain behind?that day was pretty cloudy so it didn't look very clear..

There is one my favorite traditional snacks that only available in Jogja or Solo made from cracked rice, i can not describe it too well. It is called Intip.
Traditionally, Indonesian people cooked rice with large pan, filled with water, and all that stuff that i dont really know. They have to stir the rice very well, if they dont then the rice would cracked on the surface of the pan. So, this snacks is made from the cracked rice, but people process it for more to put some flavor. The snacks was pretty uniqe because it is made from something that useless in people's mind before. They give caramelized brown sugar on the top of that, so it taste sweet, salty, and crunchy.
sorry i dont have the picture because the snacks already in my tummy :P

I also went to Pasar Klewer,Solo. Pasar Klewer is one of the biggest market in Solo and there are a lot of Batik and traditional stuff in that market, beside daily stuff that they sell in the market.
I bought the Batik in Kimono look alike.I do really like the color.
I was going to take picture at the hotel, but i left so early in the morning so I got no chance to do it.
I had seafood for dinner with this shirt, and it was not easy. if i just had known that i was gonna eat seafood, i would wear t-shirt.LOL

I'm sorry if you see too many pictures of me with the boots,
because i just love love it so much.
besides my mom made me promise to wear it often before i bought it :p

I'm waiting for my sister give birth to her son, so I'll be around my sister before my semester starts.
have good day all :)

me and the doksi :D

2009-07-24T23:33:00.000-07:00

miaaww..
as my mom made me promise to wear that boots very often,
so yes I wear them everyday to my zoo office.
but i only have two pictures of it because i didnt get any chance to take picture of it.
My friend asked if i do really love that boots and of course I answer yes :D
I do always keep simple when I'm in the office, because I'm just too lazy to put on something before I left home in the morning.
I'll post more picture of me with the boots later when I have one.
I don't have my closet around here also, then I dont have too many option :p

new baby

2009-07-21T05:02:00.000-07:00

There is gonna be a new baby born next month. My nephew :)
but today is not about him.
Alright..
I have to make a confession to my mom, that I have bought several shoes here.
Every pieces that I found are things that I've been searching for.
I mean, all i need to do is buy. Back at my home its hard for me to find a good one, so I prefer to make it which takes time and energy to think what kind of shoes that I really want.
*Yea rite, what an excuse :p

leopard print from cotton on.
I've been wanting the shoes,
at first I planned to buy it later when I'm about to go back to Indo,
but DAMN they are selling fast.
Then I was drowning in my own tears..nyehehe..
I try to forget this shoes.
Miracle does happen to whom believe it, because
somehow after work I drop by to this store then,voila..!
it was there! the last pair :)

Yayeyoyeyayayyaaaaayy....
I think I posted how bad I want this shoes.
finally..
after along time of saving money :p
Actually, i didnt sure what color that i want, then i was thinking to find
the floral once I saw it in the website.
First color that I met here was gold,
but i thought it would be Ewww
if you see gold mix up with my color skin.LOL
Then I keep on searching until I find this Front Row,
which is pretty far from the MRT stasion.
I went straight from work to this shoes and i was pretty exhausted.
Yes, I found the floral, but they don't have my size.
From the corner of my eyes, I saw this color like calling me like ask to be bought.
Then,yeayoyaoayayayaaaayyy...

Unfortunately, when I was so happy to bring him home, my bag is broken.
I want to cry and laugh at the same time. :P

I was going to put some picture of me wearing it, but I dont feel like it
because I dont find any good spot for self timer and I gain weight.
YES, I gain weight.

Since me and camera are not really going well, now I gain weight.perfect combination. LOL

I've been snacking a lot lately (how can you resist an ice cream every afternoon when you can get discount on your favorite ice cream?LOL) and no more exercise, which I usually play golf with my dad and now my dad is not around..
So well,oh well..

I'm still happy :D

zombie

2009-07-18T07:02:00.001-07:00

yihuuu..finally i can upload this photo :D

i'm working this saturday and the next saturday so i can go back to Indonesia 2 days earlier..
and this is what i wore this saturday.

This is the detail floral dress that I wore,sorry for the lack of quality :(

Feel super duper sleepy because of the midnight harry potter then i only slept for 2 hours.
two cups of coffee save me from closing my eyes today, but i do feel like a zombie!LOL

Instead of getting crazy by the 'zombyness' (what?)
i bought another baby of mine after work.
i've bought a little bit extra shoes since i've been here.
ups!
but i do met every piece that i need *stupid excuse :p
i'll post that later.

927

2009-07-17T18:43:00.000-07:00

Since I've been doing my internship in Singapore Zoo,
there is only one bus that can deliver me to there, 927.
I dont know why, but the bus looks old, the bell sounds so irritating, sometimes you can smell something horrible like the smell that i usually feel in Indonesian angkot.
blaah,dont imagine it X)
owwh,this bus only pass on several times that is written on the bus stop, but yeah it mostly late.which will make all zoo's staff will be late.
I still like this bus though, because it takes me straight to the main gate of the zoo, so i dont have to walk too far from the bus stop. after all, transportation here is well-organized.
Yesterday, i do not expect anything from the bus, i was thinking i'll stand any disturbance as long as i get home.LOL
After a while of waiting, then a looks good bus arrived, then i was surprised to see 927 is using a new bus :)

this is the old bus.
looks dark, dusty, a little bit smelly of something burnt,irritating sound of bell, and one of the e-z link card scanner is broken.
well, in short form it is riot.

This is the new bus, the bell sound much nicer, very clean, bright color of seats, the AC works properly, you can see clearly through the window which is can't on the old bus, and it has leather-of-a-new-car smells.
shortly, this bus makes me smile during that afternon.
(whaat?silly me.)

Fragile of life

2009-07-13T21:59:00.000-07:00

Why God, are you showing me this?
The fragile of life.
One, after another on a very glimpse of an eye.

May you rest in peace Mr. Anthony who always lighten up the office.
And my dear friend Asvin who always accompany me during my zoo keeper attachment, the giant big fish will miss you also.
I'm so glad to be able to know you in Singapore Zoo, even though only for a while you guys are really mean in my heart.
You both are such a great man.

mon(day) off

2009-07-08T22:26:00.000-07:00

Because of sunday i'm working now on monday i'm off..
walking around,see if i can find something cute.but i don't.
then to make me feel happier, i'm eating a loot!!
until my tummy feels like going to bursting out,LOL.

i've been wanting this kind of shoes for pretty long and this the best i can find.
actually i'm searching for one like that, but yeah..i love mine also :p

Working on Sunday

2009-07-05T16:30:00.000-07:00

I am working on Sunday, not bad. I like it because the office is quite,LOL.
this is what I wear to work.
I bought the shoes yesterday, i've bee looking one of that som I'm happy.
I also see some wonderful high heels but i'm not a high heels person, so i think it would be wasted if i buy, even though i want to x|
but wait, I still want some others,LOL.
Wait for the next post when I got the shoes :p

I do like to wear something nice, but I am not that good I think,
because I dont think I have the art talents in me,LOL.
I found so may little girls now have more awareness in this thing called fashion,
the participants are getting younger.
hmm, I envy how they already know where they are heading to.
As they are young, some of them have not find their own personal style,
then they would follow anything in magz or where ever.

While some friends at my age, blame the magz who make the cool trends into something boring.
In my opinion, its not the magz fault, it is sign that the magz is selling fast,LOL.

At least, they make the trends wearable that is why all that youngster following the trends.
No one to be blamed, you can hate them, but you can not stop them.
Try to be wiser, instead of grumbling, I think should try something different from those youngsters.

Somehow this kind of condition makes me laugh.

The youngster try to look older while the old try to look younger.

Popmie

2009-07-05T15:41:00.001-07:00

Fasting will be coming very soon and after that must following with Lebaran Holiday.
On Lebaran Holiday my family usually go to Central Java by car to visit some family members then stay at Jogjakarta for a while. All of my cousins, aunts, uncles, grand ma & grand pa from maternal are having this trip. How fun is that? Gather with your whole big family!

As the first day I am visiting others family members from my father,
We are living ont he second Lebaran day when the sun hasn't out yet and the kids (including me) will continue our sleep in the car and wake up about 8 in the moving car of course. Not so long after that, we stop at a restaurant which I always remember or we would stop to buy some fried tofu.
The journey continue, one thing for sure is we stop a lot to dine or buy traditional snacks.
One of my favorite is drink that made of rice powder as the content and the best flavor come from brown sugar (es cendol), it served cold, best! We often see it on the side of the road, but I forgot the road's name.

First destination usually Purworejo where my grand ma visits all of her friends and family members and her mom & dad graveyard, while we (the kids) are not patient enough to wait to arrived at Jogjakarta. Why? Because we want to swim at the hote,LOL. ;p
There is one shop in Purworejo that is the most popular snacks shop, yeah of course we eat there.

When we arrive at Jogjakarta, we have long food list that we have to have while we are there.
Mi godog, it is traditional boiled noodle with chicken that cooked not on the stove but on fire, you can even taste the aroma of charcoal makes the noodle even better.
Sate kambing, just a barbequed mutton on sticks, but still its a must to have them.
Ronde, this is a desserts in a dominant ginger flavour, they put nuts ball, kolang kaling (texture pretty much like jelly but harder), nuts, and little pieces of bread.
Gudeg, this is Jogjakarta most popular traditional food. No need explanation, makes me too hungry to explain it.
Soeharti chicken, actually there are a lot of Soeharti restaurant in Jakarta but we only eat it in Jogjakarta because we think the others are not as good as the one in Jogjakarta. Silly, but thats what we think.
Bakpia, like a little bread that filled with differents filler, traditionally it is green bean, but lately they make it fushion with cheese or chocolate.
Pecel, boiled vegetables with peanuts sauces, sold in small packages. yummy.
Corobikang, well i can not explain it too well. it is basicly made of flour with pandan taste that is mixed with water than cooked on a little pan in size of puffertjes, but somehow the make it look like flower. There is one very old woman who make it, she make it very slow but i don't know it is the best in town though she has past away few years ago.
Soto kadipiro, i dont know why this soup taste very good even the content is only chicken, cabbage, been sprout in yellow soup. They also served chicken liver with soy ketchup and tomato wich actually we can make it ourself at home but this one taste nicely different. We have to run to get the soup if we are late we can not get any of it.
On our way back home to Jakarta,
we can have a very good seafood or a Nasi Jambal in Cirebon,
Nasi Jambal is a small portion of rice that is wrapped in Jati leafs and there are a lot of another dishes that can be eaten with the rice, I like the beef with sambals.
Popmie, this is not traditional food, it is the instant cup noodles. We (kids) always eat it after swim.

Everytime I eat Popmie, I remember every pieces of that family tradition in my childhood memory.

I am random

2009-07-04T07:24:00.000-07:00

I have never been a cool kids.
I have never been a straight A student.
I don't have a good taste that everyone would like.
I don't have common beauty image, I'm way far from that.

Everything I pick has always been ordinary.
I'm not an art student, and not a creative also.
I'm not a girl who like to stands out in the crowd,
more like a backstage person.
Maybe because most of the time,
I don't think I'm good enough to be on the stage.

I don't know how I am became what I am right now.
I am random.

I am proud and amazed by all people who are younger than me and already know what they want and who they are.
Until now, I'm still searching how should I live my life.

I don't have some stands out talents.
I do everything very well, enough to make my self proud
but not enough to stands in the crowd.
So many times I got confused of what I really want.
Too many choices, and I can not decide where I'm heading to.
I'm not like my sister who always know exactly where she wants to go.
I'm more a go with the flow.

I like life science since in primary school, now I'm majoring biology even I don't really have a very good score at it.
I like food since I can eat, now I do really really want to go to culinary school. I love to cook, but I'm not confident to promote it.
I like shopping, I just realize that I always have something in mind to be bought.
I like to match my whole outfit, even at the end it still look ordinary.
I do a lot of sport when I was younger, tennis, swimming, badminton, cycling. Now I do play golf, pretty a lot but not sure that I could win a championship. I had once, but only the little one.
I like to write everything in my mind, tell a little story behind every event or things.

I don't want to call me random.
I'm more a flexible person.

If everything has written, why should I worry?
LOL :p

enjoy :)

2009-07-04T06:42:00.000-07:00

Do you enjoy your life?
but how often do you complain about it?

Some how complain about tasks that have to be done,
I may say too much,too tired, too hard, too lazy.
Another time complain about surrounding,
I will say too loud, too quite, too boring.
Then, it would be more and more to be complained about.

As the byword say that life is a cycle, sometimes your up and another time your down.
All the complaining stuff mostly starts when I am down,
but when I fetch my lowest position,
I did try so many things to ease the discomfort that makes me complain,
but still.
Until I start doing nothing, turn those nuisance into pleasure.
Undergo every second, without any confrontation against it.
That makes me see good things that I still have, that i didn't realize it before,
and makes me feel very very grateful of it.
Then, I can not complain for anything more,
because I have more than enough

Like waiting a rainbow after the rain,
I have to let the rain to end,
then i will be able to see the rainbow.
Enjoy the rain.

home is where your heart is

2009-06-28T04:22:00.001-07:00

I did say that i wanna be free.
Free to do anything that I want without someone else to be thought about.
I can go where ever i want to go, without someone to be excused before.
I have no limited time to be back home
Without anyone ask me to do something.
When it is all about me, i only think about my self.

That was all of my big head thoughts.
Never thought it was it.

I thought by only carrying my self towards this journey,
will make me so much easier to reach whatever I want.
If I have achieve that, what will happen if I were alone?
Held a party without anyone?
Then what would be a successful without anyone to be shared?

Why do i need those freedom while what i really want is people around me,
that have been really care and love me.

I dont need a fancy stuff, i dont need anything expensive, I dont need romantic places.
I just need the presence of them, or a written communication,
or at least in my heart remain about them that care for me.
Because home is where your heart is.

i'm blessed

2009-06-21T08:38:00.000-07:00

One of my friend remind me how we have to enjoy life.
I am now because it is the only medicine I can take by now for every heartache.
Beside that, I do really learn how do I appreciate everything that I have and stop complaining about every single thing in my life.

I’m blessed that I have super wonderful parent, that never mad about my super average score at school, never complain how I behave.
Never complain for how my mind working.
They always support me on every decision that I made,
they don’t push me to anything that they think its good for me.
All they give is advice and they left the rest to me.
Mostly we have the same thing in our head, of course I am one step behind them.
They let me learn everything naturally without any enforcement.
If some of my cousin are afraid of their parents or don’t want their parent know about them too much, I don’t.
I love them, I want to tell them anything in my mind.
We could talk for hours and it is never enough.

Having a sister like mine is a blast. We had fun as a teenager, but we never get anything too far. As she’s in one package of my family, they do really love me by always want me to have good experience in my life not the bad one.
well, it is too many to mention about three person that I have known for my whole life.

What do I find in a person for being my life partner? I want him to be patient every time I’m on my nerves. Hug me when I cry and let me cry as long as I want, and he stay still. Cheer me up when I shut my tears. Tell me good things and bad things, and leading me to the good one. Try as best as he could to be always be there for me. He has a very big spirits to lead his life and being able to dream as far as he ever imagine. And of course, he loves me to death. Yeah, its him that I mentioned. We are haven’t gone that far, but I wish we will be very far away together.

Even though I don’t really like to be in the middle of girls conversation with high pitch tone of voices, but I’m one of them whose making that high pitch tone voices.
Yeaaay.. yeah, we are girls, we like to talk, laugh, scream, and gathering.
I don’t have much friends, but I’m pretty sure that I love them very much.

As I am alone now far away from two stories room, big bed, super fit size pillow, and my nanny.
I do still feel blessed by still be able to email my mom anytime I’m online just to make sure that I eat right.
Be able to see my boyfriend faces’ through webcam in not so good quality but he still looks good. LOL.
Be able to buy any food I like. Be able to enjoy this loneliness, and thinking about the people I care about.
Be able to know new people and now something more about them by having pretty long time.
Be able to experience that I do know.
I’m blessed to be where I am and what I have until now.
Thank you God.

environment day

2009-06-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

I have to attend the zoo today to standing in booth because we are having Environment day.
So we try to teach them how to save the earth by reducing green house gasses, save energy, and plant tree. That is all basically.

I was standing on "Spin the wheel" game. If they get the points, they will have to answer my question and they will get the prize which is plant seeds or plants.

I found several different kind of family who react to the game.
First, they were really enthusiasm about this saving the earth things, they really listen carefully about what we are talking about. They really think to answer my question. They receive the prize great fully and looks like they really will plant the seeds or take care of the plants. This family has very enthusiastic parents even if you see they are the one who wants the price and they look very happy to teach their kids to save the earth. I met several kind of family but usually the parents are the one who trigger the kids but then there were one family who has young adult kids and they all do look very enthusiasm and the daughter were very nice. She thanked me and touch my hand, so sweet :)
Second, they are family that seem doesnt really care about this earth thingy, the kids look enthusiast but the parents seems like dont want them to plant anything maybe their house cant provide. I just feel bad for them, but yeah all family has their own policy.

Third, this one is really not care they just walk on and yeah..maybe they show that they care through another way. who knows?

well, it is not several i guess and its just my opinion.

I met this man, he was there just to accompany his family and friends but he gave very good information that we all have to remember there are always two sides of coin.
One thing i remember was if we use energy saving bulbs, which fluorescent, it contains mercury. We need proceed them very carefully after use, it can not being thrown away instead we should give it back to the company so let them take care of the recycling.
There are some other things that we need to know, like using another energy that need special treatment to take care of the materials that could harm any creature. Usually using alternative energy cost more than using usual petrol, maybe it is because not many people have the ability or have the proper equipment to produce that.
Well, i havent done research about this controvertion actually, so here just what i thought that there are always good and bad in everything.
but, reducing energy that we use is a good thing.

begining

2009-06-02T16:24:00.000-07:00

in the elevator of the condo,
do u see the humongous bag next to me, and the back pack i have?
they were over loaded..LOL

My dad talks about comfort zone like over and over again in our conversation.
So here I am thinking about what he’s talking about.

No I’m in someone else’s country on my own, with no one to really rely on. I have to do everything on my own.

I’m nervous to death about this.

Yes I have several friends here but not my close friends that I have mingled for years or I know them very well.
Basically, they help me the basic but in the end I have to do everything on my own.
Here I am, feel so insecure. Where I usually always have shelters that I could run to. No, I’m running to my self.

I felt that I didn’t know where else I would be heading, but here I am standing here. Everything happens, of course with obstacle but hey I am here.
It is only the beginning. I just arrived this afternoon. I still got a long way to go before I can decide that I’m strong enough or not. I hope I am.

I don’t know what will be in front of me this very soon.
One thing for sure that I will be fine through everything ☺

empty

2009-06-02T10:18:00.000-07:00

I will be gone tomorrow for 2 months, doing my internship and pretty far away without anyone. Not that far actually, in Singapore.

Somehow this is freaking me out but I am excited at the same time.
I’ve been surrounded by persons that I know very well, but then I’ll be on my own.
Sounds like I feel home sick even before I left my own home. Stupid!

I want to freeze the time. Stay with my family like this forever. Having little nieces and nephews, brother and sister in laws, and all people around me at all time. I don’t want anything to be
changed.

Laughing with my friends and gossiping with the girls, make high pitch noisy voices. Beautiful days with them. I want it to be last forever.

Feel me missing my boyfriend when he’s away but hate him to death when he’s around.
Freeze the moment of enjoying every corner of my house, every step on its floor. Hear the echo from every wall that reflects music from my ipod. Every food that served from the fridge.

Tomorrow feels like going to be my very big step, like driving car for the first time alone.
I may not have the most perfect life, but I love the lack of it.

movies

2009-05-22T11:14:00.000-07:00

yihaaaa,,,the exams are not over yet, i still got one paper to be done. killing me?YES!
this friday night i spent with my cousin, we watched angel&demon for the second time and we had conversation and so on..
yesterday,we were trying to find a farewell outfit for him. he wants to be Indiana Jones on that farewell.

This is what i wear on friday night while hang out with my cousin.
the sandals was custom made :)
and the others are just simple stuff..

As I watched Angel&Demon for the second time, I just notice that some people who's doing weird stuff in the theater. so, I hate them if :
1. They keep talking and commenting on every scene, I wanna hear that movie dialogues, not yours. please SHUT UP!!
2. They are making out..eewwwh, get a room!
3. Play with their phone, so I got disturbed by the light!
4. Sleeping, geeez..do you pay the ticket for sleeping?

When I watched today, there were couple behind me who's girl never stop commenting on every seen, and she kicked my chair..geez!!
I did wanna punch her on the face, but my cousin tell me not to do so, and i didn't do anything. My cousin thought, she was kinda pretty but her attitude was very tacky..So he lost his respect all of the sudden.
actually, my cousin used Indonesia slank words "cantik tapi katro.."
LOL, if you were there that must have been funnier!
so people, please..if you are in the movie, enjoy the movie without disturbing anyone..

shape of my heart

2009-05-19T02:07:00.000-07:00

Getting older doesn't mean getting wiser.
Wiser doesn't mean better attitude.
Better attitude doesn't mean always right or nice.
Being nice doesn't mean i don't hide anything in my heart.
Heart is something that i can shape.
As long as i can control my emotion, i think that is my heart.
Even sometimes it doesn't feel good.
I got bored sometimes with the shape that I've made.
After a while, the feelings bursting out without i can hold.
Not so many people know when it happen.
but it does happen, i lost my control.
Everyone wear their own mask,
I have mine.

Mind and heart sometimes don't get along very well.

I can blue, I can brown, I can be violet sky.
I can be hurtful, I can be purple
I can be anything you like
Mika-Grace Kelly

rainbow

2009-05-17T16:20:00.000-07:00

You will never know what will happen in the very next step of your life.
Too many choices, too many chance.
Not everything that you want is what you need.
Feel the happiness in anything life brings you .
Hurt feeling always there, but it is your choice to feel or to ignore it.
Happiness or sadness is how you choose every path in your life.
Your self is who can manage it.
It is your life, it is your decision what to do with it.
You are the one who fill it.
It doesn't have to be something nice.
Every decision that you make has its own consequences that you have to deal.
Life is about ups and downs.
During that, you will know who really loves you, who don't.
Everyone make mistakes, but it is how you pull yourself out of there.
Not how you punish your self , your struggle to pull yourself out is the punishment itself.
As long as you are still breathing, there must be another chance.

As rainbow has so many colors, so does life.

saturday oh saturday

2009-05-17T04:32:00.000-07:00

owhh..nothing to do on Saturday night, already watch Angel&Demon on Friday so i dont have anything in mind to do on Saturday..
anyway, it was a super cool movie, once is just not enough :)

So I had a nap after playing golf with my Dad, then went sushi dine with my parent and my bf too lazy to hang out,euugh!
I was thinking to have a blast weekend but my friends are all busy. So do I actually, but i always pretending that I still have time to laid back..hihi

so this is what i wore for sushi dine

On Sunday playing golf in the morning, afterward I feel super duper TIRED!
then try to study for tomorrow exam..

random day

2009-05-16T00:18:00.000-07:00

instead of getting crazy of my exams and assignment, i made lamb leg marinated in herbs..nyuumm :)

playing dress up, but i got confused what kind of shoes i should wear..
i'm thinking of boots, but i dont have one..still thinking how the boots look like, cheriooo..

doesnt feel like saturday

2009-04-27T10:29:00.000-07:00

it was saturday, but doesnt feel like one because i have to spend the day with assignment and so does sunday.
as you can see, it is my campus. if i dont a marvelous friends i might have die there, its kinda boring, lol. i can not wear anything i like. if i wear something different people would be staring at me like i dont belong there.
jeez, i still have the brain though, they just dont know yet, what people think was studying and studying. well, i dont blame that, i just not kind of studying person..hihi.
so today's outfit is kinda boring for saturday, but heyy its alot better than work days. when i only wear jeans and t-shirt..weeew..
im sorry for the lack of update, im into the blog yet, still buzzing around chictopia, since no one read my blog and i need anyone's comment about what i wear and chictopia provide that pretty well..
:)

red docmart!

2009-04-27T10:17:00.000-07:00

ugghhh,,
im dying to have this one..
but its too expensive for me, so im going to find a second hand docmart with friendly price..
can someone help me,please?

girls day out

2009-04-22T16:58:00.000-07:00

No class to attend, so its time to hang out the girls all daaaayy..yeeees :)
we do nothing but taking pictures, eating, and talking..hehe
but i got trouble after that wiht my car's tire but there're some people who helped me,thank you.

this is the details that i like about this pink stripes blouse.

uggh,i look terrible :p

sequin bow : DIY
denim dress : pasar gede bage
shirt : kamiseta pink stripes
purple top : forever 21
neklace : little shop in bandung
bag : my cousin's bag,volcom
shoes : white converse